What's your, end of tunnel- light look like?

So I've been studying for the last several months since late of 2025. I' started on the rust programming book as recommended. I tend to learn quickly with the concepts and such while I am learning and I take my time with every sentence and word. My downside is I haven't taken any notes. Anyway, It's been a lonely road, the more I think about it and I have been getting discouraged recently that I started to fall back into old patterns and avoiding studying. Every time a mere thought of writi...